Blocked

Hey everyone, so I wasn't going to write about this today because it's not much of a story, just how I'm feeling right now. Then I realized, this is the whole point of my blog, a community where we can tell stories, share how we're feeling (within reason) and not feel alone. Not sure how long this will be or if you even want to read it but, I need to let some of my stress out. I've always done that through writing. Enjoy??

I've been overwhelmed the past few weeks. My boyfriend and I are moving out of our first apartment together. This has definitely been bittersweet, as we are getting into a better financial situation but hate to be leaving a place, we made our own. We both feel like failures and wish we could have made it work, but our rent/life things were too expensive. (They were also a bit of a controlling apartment complex but that's a story for another time.) For the moment we're trying not to think about the bad and just work on getting back on our feet.

A thought that stuck with me through this process, how do people, (like "influencers") have such big houses and fancy, gas guzzling cars? You try not to compare but in "weak" moments it's hard. Especially with my track record. Trying to make ends meet can be so agonizing. You think you're ahead then life knocks you back further than before. I'm lucky enough to not have a car payment (thanks to my grandad) but I had to sacrifice a lot to have that.

I am embracing how lucky I am to have who I have in my life. We're getting through this tough position together and I understand that some have it way worse. I am so beyond grateful to my mom. She has taken us in and understood how difficult this has been for both my boyfriend and me. You know the Casey Key story I wrote a little bit ago? My mom planned that trip because she knew how much I needed it. This is such a great opportunity and not many people get this. We are not taking it for granted!

Any who, I feel a lot better and hope my writer's block is over. Thank you for listening/reading. Until next time. Bye!